My old verses (back from 2011-2013)

The first one "Darkness" was created for my friend. It's actually a song.

Darkness

Oh, the lord of the darkness
Come and tame my soul
Oh, the lord of the darkness
I'm begging you for help
And oh, the lord of the darkness
Save me from the light

Darkness is coming to the world
Shadows are taking over me
Lightness never win
Only dark side will survive

Oh, the lord of the darkness
Come and tame my soul
Oh, the lord of the darkness
I'm begging you for help
And oh, the lord of the darkness
Save me from the light

Fighting for darkness in the world
Killing the lightness from inside
Darkness coming here
I will never ever die

Oh, the lord of the darkness
Come and tame my soul
Oh, the lord of the darkness
I'm begging you for help
And oh, the lord of the darkness
Save me from the light

Oh, the lord of the darkness
Come and tame my soul
Oh, the lord of the darkness
I'm begging you for help
And oh, the lord of the darkness
Save me from the light
Save me from the light

The second one was created when we were waiting for the end of the world in December 2012. It's also a song. I have Lithuanian version for it as well.

The End

The end, the end of the world
Inevitable
It will come tomorrow day
Inevitable

So live, just live in this day
In the moment of now
Because tomorrow will not come
The end of the world

Two, two thousand and twelve
The end of the world
It will come tomorrow day
So live in today

Sleepless Midnight

My dreams are going through
The highest thoughts I've ever had
And sleepless night is coming down
To see if I'm alright again.

Who cares I'm dead or live
Who knows what am I doing now
Nobody knows I'm now asleep
And there's no one caring what I'm going through.

Where do I go right now?
What do I do today, tomorrow?
What is my path of life?
And what's the meaning of all this?

If you could tell me now
What will be in the future
What is there waiting for me
And what I'll have to undergo.

But wait, just stop, don't tell me
It would be so boring knowing
What happens in the future
I'll better try to improvise
And simple live my life.

My handwriting

Vintage envelope

I bought old looking envelopes from local small things shop and decorated it with washi tape and address labels. I like it.

I actually enjoy things from that shop. You can get cute things for really cheap prices. I bought those envelopes for only 0,10€ for 10 of them.

Envelopes 2016

These are my envelopes from 2016. Some of them I only decorated, and some I did myself.

Some hand made stuff I didn't posted for a while

This is hand made calendar of 2015 May. I think it was the best of all that I did. Just a paper, pencils, felt-tips, washi tape and sticker. :)

Also a birthday card for my grandmother. I used washi tape and textile tape. Also a beautiful sticker that I got from one of my pen pals.

And another birthday card – this one is newest. For my friend. I used existing card and sticked some washi tape and stickers.









Sadly, I didn't photographed all the cards that I made and they are already gone to their receivers, so you won't be able to see them.

Random story

I am attending a course "Start Writing Fiction" in www.futurelearn.com so I have to write stories from time to time. Here is one of them.

“Even if people empathize, they still don’t know what it’s like”, - she said to her friend, sitting in front of her in the café. Alison was wearing dark violet sweater, shirt with blue and white stripes and black knitted scarf. Her wardrobe, short maroon hair and glasses with thick frames made her look artistical. She had a silver ring with a rabbit head on her right hand index finger, which I saw when she put her fingers near her mouth. Alison also had two other rings on her middle finger, but they didn’t seem as outstanding as the one with rabbit head. She was wearing no makeup, but she had dark red polished nails.

“I can’t imagine”, - her friend answered. “If I experienced at least anything close to that, I could relate. But now… it’s just something alien.” She took a cup of coffee and took a sip. “You know, I’m just being honest.”

“I know, I don’t blame you”, - Alison answered. “At least, you don’t run away from me, or don’t look at me with goggle eyes like others. When I tell somebody that I have schizophrenia, the first thing they say is: hahaha, you’re joking, right?” - she took a deep breath. “You’re different. You took it seriously once I told you.” Alison was keeping her hands near her mouth. What if she will run away eventually, - she thought, - Maybe I shouldn’t have told her. She stood up and said rapidly to her friend: “Sorry, I have to go.”

“Wait!”, - her friend shouted. “I’m sorry, did I tell something wrong?”

“No, it’s ok. It’s just… It sometimes happens like this. I have to go.” And then she left. Her friend remained sitting there if café thinking what she said wrong. “I shouldn’t have told her that her experience is alien to me. I am so not understanding. I must have hurt her. I have to do something to make it up to her. I knew she was fragile, why would I say something like that, especially on such a sensitive topic? I’m so dumb.”

Alison got back home and the first thing she done was to take pastels and draw. She was doodling random lines with the colors she felt like using. Drawing always helped her to relax. It was one of the ways to deal with her inner reality that often wanted to burst out as hallucinations. So she just drew them. But her mind was in the café. “I will have to apologize to her and explain everything.”

Mother's day card

This is the card that I made for my mother.

 I started with plain white paper. I made the background with green and blue ink using my new blending tool. I'm happy about this tool, because effect looks good. Colors are brighter in reality. Then I used edge punch with butterflied. I put the flower sticker in the middle, and put washi tape in the corner. Washi tape is not usual washi tape, it's made from fabric.

Thanks for my penpal for beautiful stickers!

This is inside of the card. Background made with pink and purple ink. I wrote greeting with calligraphic pen. I really love calligraphic pens, I have 4 of them! (I won't tell how many pens and other writing supplies I have! Because I've never tried to count it.)